Scream!!!!!!!!

Ohh this photo it seems to be strange, yet for me and my friend it has a meaning.I love this because it is expressing a fact that had just happened.Yet, everytime I look at it I just don't think of that particular moment but see how I'm feeling from the inside...I just want to scream to world and let all know who am I really but unfortunately I don't have so guts.So my back up plan is to write everything down, now lets hope I have the guts to let those people whom I need to tell something read everything or else grow the guts and tell them.And then maybe I could look at life with a bigger smile than I have today because experience is telling me who friends are =)

Secret Santa

Well till now I haven't had a great christmas the one of the kind that you will always remember but lets still have faith for things to change.This year few presents seem to have come my way, I know that this isn't what christmas is about but I like the thought behind gifts.And,yes maybe Santa still has to come under my christmas tree to deposit some gifts due at the moment is dead empty (therefore if he alreafy came I'm screwed hehe).I have been looking at things in all the positive way possible due that when I was seeing everything bad more things made them worse,however this plan doesn't seem to work that they aren't changing eventhough I'm working hard on them.

These days have been quite nice seeing people who I didn't see for ages,and see how they changed.However,seeing them made me more conscious about my life, because I want to acheive things like having a relationship and being able to stay in it for ever till death eventhough the road seems tough and harsh yet I'm ready to love more than I'm already loving, fight for what is good for me and others and stand up and take charge, also I want to know who my true friends really are those that eventhough I might hurt them sometimes or they might do at the end of it all they are going to be there for me ready to put a smile on my face by just a stare.I hope for a year better than the ones already lived filled with fun and crazy moments, love, friends, passion, and faith in never disbelief something without even trying eventhough a simpler way seems to be nicer it might be worse than working and fighting hard for something more difficult yet maybe worth more living;both in my future carreer and that love,

To all those people reading I just wish you a merry and a joyful christmas and have a good year filled with all they desire,and that to keep those real friends close eventhough few and don't replace them with new,have friends and keep them all the same but don/t replace easily those that have been there for you and know you.This is an advice that I have learnt last year when I had this problem,yet now I'm all good I hope and ready to share all my life with someone else.

Happy Christams :))be all safe
xxxxx

Eye of the tiger

After a month I've been able to put together a large tangled puzzle and I confirmed something I knew yet was convinced the contrary.Some people play mind games on you and you are there believing yet you have to evaluate what everyone says and conclude what is best for you.Tonight I was bewildered that I was right, I came to know who my friends are, and who is there just to be there however I feel stupid due that to just few days ago I was helping this person and being there for him/her.Another thing that tonight just came to mind is when someone says he loves you, how do you actually believe him if this is what he feels for you.Clearly about that I still have to do some work and time and manners will tell me, hope this will be soon over because I want to love and love big to one person in my life yet I want this to be reciprocate and with no mind games or anything.

The last thing that was on my mind throughout these months is..."You're mine","What the song?","No, you are!".Turns around and from that day life changed from black to white and just can't believe it is going to be a year in less than a month.Let's see how this event will go this year, will it be better or worse?

She Loves You

<3 love them 

Work to live

Yesterday was the last day at uni before the two weeks of holidays start.I was looking forward for these weeks to be relaxing and maybe catch up a  little with my studies due that in a month time exams will be knocking at the door.However, apart from studying and catching up with an assignment and a presentation I have also to think seriously about my dissertation.The dissertation is going to be an important thing the next two years or so because my future will depend on it.The proposal has to be in, in February, yet for my own good it's best if I start now thinking about it,like what i'm doing on this Saturday night.I'm stayed in tonight due that tomorrow will be an early morning at work and to say that the educational stuff wasn't enough for these two weeks,I'm practically working every single day apart from THREE days.I can say that these won't be the same holidays like  I used to have way back, especially during the secondary school days, which are my most missed memories.However, I have to keep in mind that thanks to work I can have that extra money and be able to enjoy life more, now more than before because I'm planning to go to Spain this spring yet still needs to figure out with whom although a person has already proposed to join me
:)
Hope everyone will have a blessed which and be able to do some Christmas shopping or so...enjoy these days
xx

Disappear

Maybe its time to just disappear a little bit...and I must say that I´m the old Yesenia!

You can´t quit until you try

Maybe nothing will come easily right in front of you ready to take it in life,either you have to word hard and acheive it or else just be left without nothing.I intend to try and get all that I want,I just don´t want to jump to the conclusion I can´t have it or it is impossible for it to work without trying.On both sides it could work or no, but at the end of the day I won´t be left wondering what would have happened?what things would have gone?how my life would have changed?Try and risk it if you just believe in something.Eventhough some more easy things might come your way yet you don´t like it or you don´t have any interest,I´m of the opinion to go for the hard because deep down you know that it is what you really want...

You got it?

This song will always make me remember of my last birthday :)

L.O.V.E

L is for the way you look at me
O is for the only one I see

V is very, very extraordinary

E is even more than anyone that you adore and

Love is all that I can give to you

Love is more than just a game for two

Two in love can make it

Take my heart and please don't break it

Love was made for me and you

I recently feel in love with Nat King Cole thanks to a friend, I can´t stop listening to his songs :)Especially with this one and also Fly me to the moon.

Wintery nights

Tonight I'm posting again due that today I took let just say a break because I just handed in a quite tiring assignment yet I have another one.So,I decided to just spend the night rolled up in a duvet with a mug of coffee,which strangely enough it makes me sleep!!And maybe watch a movie...let's hope that caffeine won't make me sleep suddenly due to me it is like a sleeping pill.hehe.However I';n happy to start this week in a relaxed way for once.

Good week to all 

xxx

love her <3

Graduation

These days the more I see people celebrating with their graduation,I more want to graduate.It is an important phase in life for some people and I clearly want it to be and I'm ready to work for it no matter what!!The fact of achieving something in life with all the hard work and being recognized is an amazing thing...and then after graduating at my university there it is you have the buscade with all the course friends :)

A thing of my course is that this is in particular the first year that Spanish is offered as Honours therefore we are more looking forward to graduate due that we will be the first!!!We already know how our tshirt will be and that we will be cruising Malta in a tourist jeep instead of a bus due that we are only 9 girls!Can't wait for these 2 years to pass :)

Don't just assume

Those little things one does without even knowing are the ones to be remebered,so don't think that you cannot make someone happy or do what they want or deserve.By just being yourself without noticing you are putting a smile on someones face and also making them falling in love without knowing.

Remember everything grows from a small thing :)

Tangled up

In life every once in a while we may feel tangled up by something, could it be love, career, family or any other reason.This will seem to be tearing us apart yet we have to fight so that it won't win us!There ain't no easy way to get through which will make it more painful to get to the end.Don't think of an end and just because you think is right do not try...in life all we have to do is try it might work as it might not.However it is better to know that you failed trying that failed because of not trying.

Go head and risk it...what doesn't break you will  make you stronger and more ready for life.
I'm ready to fight all odds and get all that my heart loves and wants,don't care if I'll be crying all night and feel pain as long as I have tried anyhthing I will not give up!!